i have been underestimating myself, my abilities and my dreams for a long time,

years maybe.

and i have realized that i have been overestimating my abilities whilst underestimating them and this prevented me from making corrections and improvements.

u see, the math is simple! u underestimate something then u lose faith in it. 

u lose faith in something, then'll give up on it.

and if u give up on something and forget about it, it will be weakened and it will decay!

doing this, u have to overcome the lack of that quality... then u overestimate your abilities to overcome the feeling of emptiness...

and this could turn into an infinity loop!

the good news is that ... i just broke the loop!

im out.